April 2022

In February we were all sure the war would stop before my birthday on April, 16. Unfortunately, it didn’t and as I’m typing these words, it’s still dragging on. They say the 30th birthday is a special one, but to be honest, I’d prefer it to be dull and boring, I’d rather choke with take away sushi without soya sauce like we did during the pandemic – I’d trade my “special” birthday for everything, if it could put me in the reality where the genocide in Ukraine isn’t taking place.

There are things we can’t choose or change though. Apparently, this war will have to last a bit longer and we will have to carry on with our lives and stick to all available simple ways to find joy.

On the second week of the war, I met Audrey and Thierry who were volunteering in a Humanitarian center collectiong aid for Ukraine. They were just about to leave to Poland to transport the humanitarian help and told they might drive several Ukrainian refugees (though I prefer calling them temporary evacuated people) to the European Union. This is the short story of how my best friend with her family ended up in Toulouse. This is not the end though, as their kindness stretched beyond these actions, which were already more than enough. They invited all of us at their country house in Haute-Garonne not far from Toulouse for a weekend that was supposed to clear our minds and get some fresh air. We accepted.

That was a true bliss. Far from the war and civilization, far from the internet connection, far from everything. There was only sun and beauty of the nature, good company and tasty food. It’s weird to say, but despite the war, despite the atrocities, I felt happy. It was an excellent festive birthday.

We could have easily spent three days just chilling on the grass, letting the time crawl from breakfast to early lunch, which would turn into dinner and repeat. Still we managed to stay active! On the first day we made a long walk from Ganties (the village in question) to Montespan to see the castle that Louis XIV gave to his favorite. 7 km of walk through green hills and meadows to improve the birthday cake digestion.

I hate living in the timeline where every day something happens for the first time since the WWII. I really do. I just try to keep in mind that everything passes by and in a historical perspective, this won’t last too long. My task for these weeks (months?) is to preserve my sanity and fill them with something else than scrolling. This weekend in the mountains is a perfect memory to keep us warm in the most horrible moments.

I feel stupid for having been happy about living here and now. I thought my generation would only have to deal with social problems and global warming but history had something else in stock for us all. Good news – there will always be kindness and friendship, there will always be people ready to help. There will always be beauty and love. Bad news – there will also always be wars as long as humanity exists.